Fear is Our Own Creation

Hello guys~ Its have been two months! I never open my blog again.. Actually, there were many incident that happened in my life for last two months. And everything just happen so so fast. Thank to God, for still and always gives me strength to face my life. Thank to God, i still have people around me that always love me and cheer me up. Here I am now. I'm still here because of Him. I'm still can smile, laugh, loving, and feel grateful everyday just because of Him, my Jesus. I didn't get in to the university that I want. I'm trying another fame university again, but still no luck. I want to try many university around there, but I think God didn't let me. Because, ya there are some problems with my family and God was reprove me. I made some bad mistakes.. I was so ashamed of what I've done and I feel sorry.. Nah, forget it :( Then, my father told me to continue my study in Batam.  I took the test for UIB. University International of Batam. And I just have done i...

World Prayer Assembly 2012 May 17, 2012 @ Stadion Gelora Bung Karno, Jakarta, Indonesia. after that, with my sister Hanna and her friends go to Plaza Senayan.

hello. i'm coming back.  well, i have been in Jakarta since two weeks ago. finally, i have to take my course in here. its all because my mom talked with her sister, and my aunt told my mom that i can live in her house. take the course that place not far from the house. first, i don't want follow my mom advise. i don't want live here, alone. i don't have friends here. but, what can i do? i have no choice.  so, i started to live in here. everyday i go to Ganesha Operation which is located in Buaran. met new friends. doing new activities. study with new teachers. and many more. i thank God for everything. i know this is a best plan from Him. He will give the best future for me. i'm sure i can pass all the test that will be held on Juni. and FTI ITB is waiting me. Optimistic! here are some picts, my school farewell :" April 23rd, 2012 @ Grand Galaxy Ballroom Planet Holiday this is me :3 my class performance  with my friends i...

THE EXAM IS OVER !!!!!  THANK GOD, THANK YOU JESUS! bless all my answer(s), God. i know You will give the best result for me. amen. then, this is the last day i go to school. use my white and grey uniform. i'm gonna miss my high school. my classmates. my teacher. everything about my high school :''''( thanks for the moments guys. I LOVE YOU ALL. I LOVE YOU SMANSA'12 :')

HAPPY GOOD FRIDAY EVERYONE! Jesus has died to us. He gaves His life just for us. He wash our sins away, and we saved. Karena dosa-dosa kita semua, Tuhan Yesus rela menebusnya dengan disalibkan, Itulah Kasih paling Agung. "Tidak ada kasih yang lebih besar dari pada kasih seorang yang memberikan nyawanya untuk sahabat-sahabatnya." - Yohanes 15:13 "Ia sendiri telah memikul dosa kita di dalam tubuh-Nya di kayu salib" - 1 Petrus 2:24 "Ketika Ia dicaci maki, Ia tidak membalas dengan mencaci maki; ketika Ia menderita, Ia tidak mengancam," - 1 Petrus 2:23a "Karena begitu besar kasih Allah akan dunia ini, sehingga Ia telah mengaruniakan Anak-Nya yang tunggal," - Yohanes 3:16a "Tetapi dia tertikam oleh karena pemberontakan kita, dia diremukkan oleh karena kejahatan kita;" - Yesaya 53:5a "ganjaran yang mendatangkan keselamatan bagi kita ditimpakan kepadanya, dan oleh bilur-bilurnya kita menjadi sembuh."...

yap, final exam is gettin' closer. 37 days to go .. i have done 3 time of tryout in my school. and i've just finished my last semester test in high school. so damn tired. but its not over. on monday, i will face my UAS. full week. then, after that. here we go, UN. i just want to : scream. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!! stressed out. i need HOLIDAY . goodnight. God bless

hari ini, hari pahlawan. tepat pukul 09.00, anjing goldenku yang masih berumur 5 bulan telah dipanggil Yang Maha Kuasa. pada akhirnya dia harus mati karena virus yang hinggap di tubuhnya dan memakan habis darah2nya. aku mengetahui kabar itu disaat aku akan tampil speaking, dengan berusaha keras aku menahan tangisanku selama penampilan. hingga semua usai, aku kembali ke bangkuku dan disitulah aku mengeluarkan seluruh tangisanku. rasa sedih, kesal, menyesal, kehilangan, semuanya. aku sedih karena tidak bisa menjaganya dengan baik. aku menyesal tidak memerhatikannya setiap hari. memberinya makan pun terkadang aku masih males2an dan menyuruh adikku. aku menyalahkan diriku sendiri, tapi aku tersadar tidak berguna berbuat seperti itu. toh, dia sudah tiada. Coco, anjing golden kecilku, yang hiperaktif, suka loncat2, suka berbuat usil, tapi dia sangat lucu. sangat menggemaskan. aku pernah memukulnya karna dia merusak barang rumah. aku menyesal..  Tuhan, kenapa harus sekarang?...